Margaret. I first met you when Emily was new born. I was so nervous, you was my boyfriends big sister, and I didn't want you to not like me. I ended up babysitting Beth and Emily when you would go to work at the cab station. It was then when you showed me how to be a mum. Even when Andrew wasn't there I would come to yours and stay. We would have girly nights with pizza and plenty of laughs. Nothing was ever organised and to plan, but somehow it worked. You were the 1 who brought my 1st pregnancy test and got excited with me over it. We were like 2 naughty school girls trying to tell Andrew. I remember on 1 night out, someone actually thought we were sisters, which u didn't deny. When I had Paige, all I could think was that I hope she was like you and your girls. Maybe that was the gas and air. Now Margaret she looks so much like you sometimes and it shocks me. You were so beautiful and so is Paige. I feel privileged to have a part of you to still look at. Anyway. We lost touch for a while, and chris brought us back together. I was really nervous about how I would cope with having another child and you calmed my fears. You always showed me that life isn't as scary as I thought, always made a joke out of a situation. We would go months without talking, then would spend hours on the phone. Usually started off by you getting Robert to wind me up! I would wonder what was going on until Id hear you laughing in the background, u cheeky bugger. I worshipped the ground you walked on Margaret, always looked up to you like a big sister. Hate that I didn't make more of an effort, but I never expected there to be a time limit. You were and will always be such an amazing woman, so unique, so special. Life without you in it is cruel. When I had the call to tell me what was happening, I didn't believe it, I wanted to get to you and shake you back to us. Paige and I will always talk about you, and I still have that keyring you gave me when I was 16, I think you was going through a hippy stage haha. Anyway iv gone on for long enough. We love and miss you always, that will never go away, but I still can't full accept that you won't turn up out of the blue x x x